[ sirius knows quite well that he's a bit of a prat when it comes to listening. he usually needs time, time to process and cool off before he's really ready to absorb things he doesn't want to hear. but he'd processed it all long ago, when he first began to realize he was losing his brother to his parents, that regulus was slipping away and there wasn't a single damned thing he could do about it. he's raged already, they've fought, rowed, screamed, and it's over, it's in the past.
grieving regulus' presumed death - it sort of put things in perspective, when you feel like you've gotten a second chance. sirius is ready to listen, open-eared and waiting. ]
So you were -
[ - really one of them, he means to say, but doesn't finish. it was a presumption, really, assuming that regulus had really become a fully fledged death eater, not simply a supporter of the cause. he'd known it, they'd both known he knew it, but still somehow knowing it for certain hurts. sirius can't help but feel like he'd failed. he'd been too damned self-absorbed, too defiant and willful. he'd given up too soon, should have tried harder to pull his brother out of the fire.
sixteen. he was sixteen. a bloody child.
sighing hard, sirius scrubs his hands over his face, and keeps his thoughts behind his teeth. there are more important things to discuss. ]
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grieving regulus' presumed death - it sort of put things in perspective, when you feel like you've gotten a second chance. sirius is ready to listen, open-eared and waiting. ]
So you were -
[ - really one of them, he means to say, but doesn't finish. it was a presumption, really, assuming that regulus had really become a fully fledged death eater, not simply a supporter of the cause. he'd known it, they'd both known he knew it, but still somehow knowing it for certain hurts. sirius can't help but feel like he'd failed. he'd been too damned self-absorbed, too defiant and willful. he'd given up too soon, should have tried harder to pull his brother out of the fire.
sixteen. he was sixteen. a bloody child.
sighing hard, sirius scrubs his hands over his face, and keeps his thoughts behind his teeth. there are more important things to discuss. ]
Horcrux?